Tired of Not Being Happy?

Is it that you are not happy now, and you want to be? If you want to be happy, that must be sometime in the future that you are talking about, right? But what about now? Don't you want to be happy right now? Maybe you already are.

Is there really anything here that you can call unhappiness? Look what is here in this moment — right now, there is peace, there is stillness. There might be some movement on that stillness, and that movement might be a thought that refers to some other time — the past or the future — but that movement doesn't actually MOVE the stillness, does it? Look in your experience and see.

Isn't the stillness still here?

Are you tired of feelings of anxiety? Let's look at those. A fearful thought can arise out of the blue. A little squeeze of anxiety might hit you in the gut somewhere. And what about it? We are all remembering that feeling, right now. And we don't want it to happen anymore. But in this very moment, isn't there a stillness, a peace? Anxiety can only be in the future or the past, but it can't be right now.

"But when I'm in it, it's awful! I run a whole story out in my head and it gets so bad!"

I'll tell you why there is only peace and stillness here, and not anxiety. It's because you are beingness, you are awareness, and your nature is peace and stillness. When anxiety appears, it's just like anything else that appears — it belongs to the story.

Yes, it can be painful and it can be convincing. But it's not in reality. You are the only reality, and you are by nature peace and stillness, aware, being.

The story is self-perpetuating. It's job is to self-perpetuate, and it can do that because of your thoughts. You create a story that is not really there. A whole world of story! As soon as your thoughts are pulled from the story, where is it?

It is nowhere. There is only stillness.

So look for things that only belong to the story. This is what
Vedanta calls discrimination. It's knowing what is real and what is story. As you do your inquiry, you will learn more and more things that are only in the story, and you will learn that things in the story have no power to hurt you, to make you anxious, or to make you unhappy.

Each time an anxious or unhappy thought appears, ask about where it is, where it lives, what it refers to. Does it refer to itself only? Its own story of itself, and the other components of the story? Yes, I guarantee, that thought of the story only refers to the some other part of the story. And you do not live in the story. You do not exist anywhere in the story. Your being is totally independent of the story.

And so….you are free. Now, and all the time. If this isn't how it is for you, it's okay. It's nothing you need to get in the future. Just be present, think of stillness, and it is here.

You are Goodness

What is your spiritual priority? Is your priority to find the truth, know the truth of who you are? Is that a goal? What happens after the goal of knowing the truth is reached? Is the priority happiness? To be happy, to live as a happy person? To live as a free person? To love everything that appears?

It's important to look past the end goal. It's good to know what all of this seeking is for. And it's also good to know that the journey doesn't end when the goal is reached.

The goal is knowing the truth of who you are. This is not a static knowledge — it is an expanding one. This means that it's impossible to get all of it through the intellect. The intellect has to be on board, at the beginning, but the real expansion comes when the heart becomes involved. Your emotional truth — LOVE — will become more and more lived and experienced as your heart learns this piece, the emotional piece of the knowledge. This piece — the expansive love of Goodness — just keeps growing in you forever. It has no end. There is no limit to the amount of love God has in mind for you, for your experience.

So happiness and freedom are not prizes at the end of the search which can be plucked off and kept in your pocket. They are invitations to expand and explore your relationship with the love of Goodness, God's love. Happiness can't be yours as a static thing belonging to a person — happiness can only be in the dynamic expression and outward flow of love, through you and into the world. That is where you see the love appear, and where others also see it appear, through you. The goodness in the world is because of YOU.

There is no end to God and no end to Goodness. After the seeking is over, the journey to Goodness begins, and there is no end to this magnificent, brilliant journey.